Anonymous Turmoiler: Dream Job vs. Dream Guy
Very recently, I have reached one of my largest goals. I’ve imagined the moment of being granted this opportunity for years and for some reason instead of being absolutely ecstatic, I am more terrified and stressed than I’ve ever been in my life.
After graduating college, I decided to take on a full-time position with the company I had been working for during school. Although this was not exactly my ideal city to start out in, I loved my job and couldn’t bring myself to leave the company and all of the opportunities it was offering me. So, at that moment I set a goal to gain as much experience as possible, move up in the company, and transfer to my dream city at the first opportunity available. Fast-forward to almost two years after graduating.
Still in that college town, but living in an absolutely beautiful apartment, my career could not be doing any better, started dating the most amazing guy, and there pops the opportunity to leave it all for my dream job in that dream city…800 miles away.
My stomach dropped (and is still dropping) both with excitement and pure panic.
This was my dream, how could I ever pass it up? On the other hand, how could I just leave this great life I have established and risk it all to start over in a brand new city so far away? Although it had always been my dream, I don’t think I realized how much my life would change until the moment it was at my fingertips.While this decision was one of the most important and terrifying decisions of my life, deep down I knew this is what I’ve always wanted. And yes, I am sitting here with so much weight on my shoulders trying to find an apartment that I can afford, figure out how exactly public transportation works, or how I will manage this long-distance relationship.
Part of me just wants to stay in the comfortable routine that I have already established.
More of me, though, is excited about this new chapter, beaming with hope that it will lead my life in the exact direction that I want it to go and trust that all the other pieces will fall into place.
Your twenties are full of life-defining decisions that always seem too large to handle.
The good news is, you always have the answer deep down. The answer will not come from your mom or your best friend. Take on all of the opportunities offered to you. Trust your gut, take the risk and enjoy the journey. The scary and exhilarating decisions are always the ones that lead to the best outcomes.
