Anonymous Turmoiler: Cancel On Me

In high school, I spent every afternoon with my friends.

I actually hated to be alone. I was so social. But I feel like I have lost that part of me. You know those self-deprecating memes like, "Yeah, sex is great but have you ever had someone cancel plans on you last minute?" I feel that to my core. And I hate that I've become that way.

Work is exhausting.

And on top of that, living on my own means doing laundry, food shopping, cleaning my apartment, running random errands...you get it. That leaves me feeling perpetually burnt out, and for some reason, when a friend texts me for plans, my immediate reaction is feeling stressed. Why is socializing a burden to me in my 20's? Why can't I balance work, responsibilities, and my social life like so many people can that I see on instagram?

I feel so guilty about it. And worst of all, I fear it will only get worse. I still go out--not as often as I used to--but I still go. It's just that the whole day leading up to my plans, I dread them and secretly hope my friend will cancel so I can go home and sit on my couch.